a return to reality

This week has been the longest week of the school year thus far.
I don't drink tea/coffee in the mornings. I don't fancy the thought of becoming dependent on caffeine, but I'm constantly tired now. I've been spoiled by the whole 8 hours a night for two weeks that was winter break and its lovely snow days.

My violin teacher called me "fickle" this week. I'm starting to see it more in what I do, though it's not terribly evident.

There have been some things that make me want to leave even more this week. A few words of ignorance from the family. Relationships. Friendships. The news.

Coincidentally, I had scheduled a debate in Model UN to cover the entire Arab/Israeli conflict this week, but it got canceled due to the ice day. I still did all the research, though, which makes it that much harder to read the news every morning and hear about everything getting worse.

I know it's not as easy as this, but I wish people could trust each other more.
My disappointment comes in the radical individuals who take away the right of peace and security from the majority, and it is almost always the majority who pays.

I started AP Art this semester. It's nice. Our first critique is not for two weeks, but I haven't started on anything yet. I need a theme for my concentration. I was thinking "ordinary," but I have a slight feeling that that's been done before.

I had a dream the other day that my admissions officer from the First Choice was telling me why I was deferred. She called me a narcissist because I sent in photography.

My dreams have been very vivid lately. I wish I was better at lucid dreaming. I've only managed to do it once, but it's really very fun--I went from a Roman bathhouse to a medieval cobblestone street in no time at all. I'm quite grateful to my memory and imagination. It's supposed to be exhausting after a while, though, and I think I rather like the unpredictability of regular dreams.

I love crepes, but I think I want to try my hand at another type of foreign breakfast food tomorrow morning. Suggestions?

After breakfast will be violin. I'm a little certain I'll be holing myself up in the library in the afternoon, attempting to understand how to calculate volumes with integrals.

AP English is required to do a poetry recitation on the 20th. I read a few poems out loud last night. It was nice.